Time had run out in the hours between drooling sleep
and eye-rubbing wakedness. Between the time when Jenna Luther
exclaimed her final "Oh God" and then her nudity
disappeared within the folds of her pink bathrobe.
"Well would you rather be dead?" she asked
while slipping on her underwear and black uniform pants. With one
eye she looked at the flower sculpture he’d brought her on the
dresser, and with the other she saw him thinking, eyes glued to the
ceiling, hands behind his head with a knot of introspection on his
lips. In over a year’s time, she didn’t know Gary Nogal any more
intimately than she had the first day they met. On the level of
animals, she knew his instinct toward female attraction and had
learned how to arouse his interest and his libido, but was no closer
to understanding his mind and heart as she was her own.
"Don’t be an ass," he said. "Of
course I wouldn’t. But if we allow it to go on much longer, we
might be better off."
The drone of Pangea’s motor betrayed its many
defects, its ten-year history of poor or no maintenance, busted
components loosely held together by hope, tricks and spells. The
distinctive noise of its grinding into a higher gear muffled the
voice of Clive Winchester.
"Nogue? You there? Nogal, answer if you’re
within range."
"I’m here," Gary yelled into the wall
intercom.
"Bring the prisoner to Level One. Now."
Disconnecting the speak-button on the intercom
without acknowledging a direct order would have ramifications for
sure, Jenna thought watching from the doorway. But in some way she
understood this recklessness, still knew what it meant to have ties
to someone you shouldn’t, to be loyal while knowing that this
loyalty made your own life expendable. That’s how Nogue had felt
about the Journeyman at first, an unquestionable loyalty, and not
because he was an outsider living near Megtalion or because he could
do what others couldn’t.
He had tried to explain it to her once.
"He means no harm," Nogue had whispered to
her under the covers where the intercom couldn’t be heard.
"We don’t know anything about him, or hardly
anything. What makes you want to protect him like you do?"
"The fact that he thinks he needs no
protection."
"He doesn’t, really."
"Not from us. But Clive would never willingly
take such a risk by letting him stay here. Neither would
Bennett."
"And Rory would understand your reasons at
least, without any willingness to act on his behalf."
"So it’s up to us then," Nogue said and
from there it was decided.
He glanced up at Jenna now, half dressed with her
uniform shirt unbuttoned all the way down. With his eyes, he said
all he needed to.
"Think about what you’re doing, Gary."
She came towards him and grabbed the flesh of his arm with her
fingernails. "You’re making this decision for the whole crew,
not just yourself, and if you’re wrong about Clive we’re all
gonna pay for it."
"We don’t just dispatch prisoners out the
hull of our ship. Our crew doesn’t do that, Megtalions don’t do
it and neither does anybody else."
"On the contrary," she said. "People
have been doing it for centuries. And before that, civilizations
electrocuted their accused and convicted and hung them from trees.
If the Journeyman committed a crime and violated the laws of this
vessel and the Alliance, then I see cause for punishment. But I don’t
think that’s the case. Clive was trained to deal with situations
like this. He’ll be understanding, I’m sure of it."
"I’ve been called," Nogue replied with a
steely look. "He’ll already be wondering where we are."
Jenna followed behind Nogue and the prisoner and
scanned the details of the interior hull with her eyes. Everything
gun metal gray with opposing white ceilings for contrast. In a blink
she could summon a memory of living on Varia, where they had been
stationed for two years. Surface-duty, as it had been called, meant
the ship was stationed on the planet’s surface because the
atmosphere was deemed safe enough by the Alliance. The ship’s
research library archives had provided samples of seeds and bulbs
that could grow in that climate, and recipes for preparing their own
food. Every morning she sat on the dewy grass in just her
nightclothes and breathed the clean air, trying to store as much of
it in her lungs as possible.
They were on Level Four now approaching the
elevator, Nogue and the prisoner in front of her. She heard
something as they stepped into the lift. Not a noise, but a voice.
It was coming from the prisoner, but his lips hadn’t moved,
because she saw his face as she stepped in front of him. She had
thought him to be an empath upon their first meeting, but he seemed
even more than that now.
"Return to your quarters," he was saying
with his watery, black eyes and dark circles surrounding the deep
sockets. Locked in his gaze by an invisible beam, she had no
conception of Nogue, as he seemed to have disappeared. The prisoner,
Bronn as he’d introduced himself when she escorted him from the
loading dock, seemed to stare at a spot on her forehead,
concentrating all his energy on some mental process to which she was
not privy. So far, he was not harming her and didn’t seem to look
at this as the conclusion of his effort. Try to relax, she thought
as she frequently did when confronted by another species. Where is
Nogue? He was just here a moment ago.
"Nogue is here with us. Your eyes are seeing
him but your brain cannot." Bronn blinked his eyes and smiled
as he said this without moving his lips.
"What are you doing to me?" As she thought
this, she examined Bronn for any external oddities that her brain
might have missed earlier. He wore plain black shoes made of fabric
and a long black caftan bound at the waist by two wide strips. She
could no longer hear the motor from the ship, or the buzz of lights
above her head or even the distant beating of her heart. I am not
afraid, she decided right then.
"What do you feel now?"
Taking a moment to consider what had happened in the
last sixty seconds, she bravely uncrossed her arms and let them hang
gently at her sides. "Curiosity. I had only read about your
species in the ship’s archives."
"There are many of us left."
"Do you all communicate this way?"
"We are able to speak if needed, but prefer
telepathy as it offers a kind of unfiltered communication. Words and
thoughts at the same time without the devious interference of the
ego."
From a part of her brain, Jenna Luther could hear
someone clear their throat, close a door and start down the hallway
they were both standing in the middle of. She felt the brush of an
arm against her back and the sound of a human exhalation as the
person passed, obviously unaware of their presence and their
process. What was Bronn seeing in her anyway? Did he see her as a
thirty-four year old woman with light brown hair and green eyes?
Could he see the faint scar on her cheek that she got as a child
after falling off a swing, a nose sculpted from her father’s
ancestry and her mother’s high forehead? Could he see the
particular shade of lipstick she’d put on while getting dressed,
or was he looking at the patterns of neurotransmitters flashing
their secret code of lights and movement within her cerebral cortex?
Come to think of it, did he even distinguish women from men? Perhaps
she was just a specimen and he was looking to extract her brains out
through her forehead. No, he didn’t mean her any harm. Not her
anyway. She worried about Nogue, though. His behavior around Bronn
seemed contrived and brainwashed. She had trusted him at first.
Maybe this was a mistake.
"What do you want with me?" she said
telepathically.
"Look around you. Tell me what you see."
She turned her head left and then right, and noticed
that the world she had temporarily departed from, the gun metal gray
interior of the ship’s hull, the synthetic feel to her clothing
and the chemical odor in the air, begin to return. Though shaded and
only partly visible, she was standing between two worlds now, two
dimensions – one physical and one purely mental. The image of
Bronn was beginning to fade as the world of her familiarity slowly
broke through.
"I see that you’re disappearing. Is that what
this charade’s about? Special effects? Wowing me with your
telepathic ability as a distraction from the real truth of your
escape? I find your behavior quite cowardly, if I’m correct."
"You are not. Journeymen do not have the
capacity to feel fear. I am trying to assimilate our brains so that
we can begin communicating on a deeper level. I have completed this
procedure on your friend, Lieutenant Nogal. We communicate together
quite well now."
Jenna returned her arms to their crossed position
and tried to hide her frustration. "You have put Nogue’s life
in danger, all of our lives. Clive Winchester, our captain, will
execute you with the same emotion he feels when brushing his teeth.
The Alliance does not allow unwanted visitors on board its explorer
vessels, and Clive has no tolerance for deceivers."
"What is my deception? I have done nothing
wrong."
"You came here to spy on us. You are getting
close to Nogue and myself for the purpose of extracting tactical
information from us so that, I can only guess, you can take over our
ship."
"You have misjudged me. My intentions involve
nothing more than education."
"I think not. Release me from this hold
immediately."
"I will do so if you answer one question with
perfect honesty and clarity."
Jenna Luther shook her head and bit her lip.
Patience ran out of her like jelly beans from a glass jar. She
inhaled deeply and tried to understand what the Journeyman wanted
with her, but then realized that he was reading her thoughts
probably before she even became aware of them. Nogue would be
looking for her, and looking for Bronn. Would he think she had
helped him escape? Of course not, since she had been suspicious of
him from the start. Nogue would be standing at attention in Clive
Winchester’s office explaining to him what she could not even
explain to herself. Where had they gone, after all? Slipped into a
hidden pocket of air, or something more overt like having walked
through walls? Was she part of the air molecules in the hallway or
was her presence altered to include a mathematical formula like the
holographic images she could conjure with the touch of a button on
Deck Nine?
"What’s your question?" she heard
herself think and then wished her mental filter had stepped in to
edit for her.
"Good. You are trusting me more than ever. That
is what I want. I would like you to tell me what you saw in the
medical facility when your guards discovered my presence the first
day I arrived."
Jenna Luther struggled to control her thoughts and
impulses now as she never had before. Thoughts, now, were like
spoken words. So her mental editing had to come before the thought
made itself known in her consciousness. There was so much to
consider now, so many probabilities, strategies and consequences to
her actions over the next few minutes. Because of the restrictions
imposed by the Alliance the last time they got wind of a visitor,
Clive would be out for blood. But Bronn should not be allowed to
move freely within the vessel and take hostage the minds of her
crew. He seemed to respond to active thoughts, rather than the
jumble of passive thoughts that normally swarmed around her brain.
How she answered his question would quite possibly decide the fate
of herself, Pangea’s crew, and any other ships that may have been
visited by such a being.
Bronn already said he was here because of education.
But education being the first step of what process? Mutiny? Seige?
Hijack? Or was it simpler than that? Maybe what the prisoner wanted,
what ‘they’ wanted, involved just one thing.
"There’s not much time left," he said in
the cool, liquid voice that all of his other thoughts were spoken
through.
"How much?"
A pause followed her words, during which time she
watched the prisoner’s countenance fade in an out and her own
surroundings seemed to return to their original vibrance.
"I watched you walk from your own body and
enter another’s. You remained in the body of Dr. Margy Wheelock,
the ship’s physician, for several minutes while she spoke to the
captain, and when the captain left you returned to your own body.
You are obviously quite skilled with this type of transformative
displacement, because Dr. Wheelock’s words truly seemed like her
own. I wonder how many other bodies you have inhabited in the short
time you’ve been on this ship. I suppose when I was engaged in
intimate activity with Lieutenant Nogal, you were in possession of
his body then?"
"Yes."
"Damn you! Why? Why would you do this? You
obviously have enough experience studying humans to know how
personal this experience is."
"Do not feel betrayed. It was an education. I
have no personal knowledge of the emotion you call pleasure."
"What kind of twisted education are you
getting, exactly?" Jenna yelled into the startling silence of
the hallway. "Are you studying us? Studying our species? Well I
ask you, then, do you also study principles like deceit and
betrayal? How about how humans deal with invasive maneuvers such as
this?"
Since she had spoken her last sentiments rather than
thinking them, the stranger was no longer visible opposite her.
Speaking, she thought, must have broken the chain.
Jenna found Rory and Bennett arguing with the
computer in the Secondary Bridge.
"What’s going on here?" she asked,
trying to sound as normal as possible, knowing all the while that
the prisoner was probably in her own body now, transferred from Deck
Nine to half-potency in the hallway and now completely under her
skin.
"We’re studying the logarithmic tables
downloaded from the data recovered from Varia."
"Varia?" she asked. "That was years
ago. What do we want with that data?"
"Acidox is telling us that the vibration
frequency emitted by the prisoner started when we left Varia."
Jenna tried to think of the response she would have
given to this information under normal circumstances, under the
circumstances of being her own person, a human female, an officer on
an Alliance Charge A vessel rather than an empty host.
"What type of vibration is it?" she asked,
or did the prisoner ask it? She knew nothing of frequencies and
would not understand the answer they gave. But Bronn would
understand.
"It’s emitting a high powered frequency
unfamiliar by anyone who’s looked at it.
The metal, grainy, digitized voice of the ship’s
computer interrupted. "The-
frequency-pattern-has-grown-in-intensity-since-Lieutenant-Luther-arrived-on-the-bridge."
"I don’t doubt it. I was talking to the
prisoner just a short time ago," she replied.
"Acidox, where is the prisoner now?" Rory
asked.
"On-the-bridge."
Rory, Jenna and Bennett all looked at each other and
let their eyes scan the room’s surroundings. No one was visible
but the three of them.
As a reflex, Jenna found herself buttoning the other
two buttons on her uniform jacket as if the prisoner’s head might
be protruding from her clothing.
"Lieutenant Luther?"
It was Clive. "Yes Captain. Secondary Bridge,
sir."
"Where’s Nogue? I ordered him to bring the
prisoner to the Main Bridge thirty minutes ago."
"I’ll go check the cargo lifts, sir.
Engineering reported a problem with them two days ago," she
lied. "They could be stuck between decks."
Bennett, the ship’s head engineer, shot a
suspicious glance. "I’ll help you," he said following
Jenna into the hallway.
"What the hell’s going on?" he asked.
Nogue’s dead, we’re being taken over by a
malevolent species and the prisoner’s hiding inside my body, she
thought to herself and stifled a chuckle.
"Is something funny Lieutenant?" Bennett
asked and turned around to face her.
"Certainly not. It’s just that …people have
started disappearing lately."
"Like you, for instance?"
Jenna swallowed a lump in her throat and pressed her
palms against the fabric of her uniform pants. Bennett’s face
betrayed the truth about her darkest fears. "You know?"
Chief Tactical Officer David Bennett grabbed Jenna’s
arm and yanked her into an alcove around the corner. "The
prisoner was in me for three days last week. I can’t be sure but I
suspect he made his way into Nogue as well."
Jenna rubbed her eyes and scaled her fingers through
her hair. Was this possible? Was she even talking now, listening,
cognizant of anything other than the odd taste in her mouth and the
creaky feeling in her bones when she moved her arms and legs?
"How did you recognize that this happened?"
"I read about something in the logs. Quite a
while back, but Aileron 3 had some officers’ logs that reported a
visitor suspected of inhabiting some of the crew members."
"For what purpose? And how did they finally
leave?"
Bennett squinted and looked at the ceiling as if
responding to some interior verbal cue. "We don’t know if
they ever did."
The hall grew dimmer and the air had a stale smell
to it. David Bennett’s face flashed in and out of clarity just as
Bronn’s face had before he entered her own body. She touched his
cheek, and touched his hair, looked into the same blue eyes that she’d
grown used to seeing every morning for three years until Gary Nogal
took a position on the ship. What had once been a sharp edge between
them had softened into mutual agreements. Agreeing not to hate,
agreeing to try to still care and co-exist in a way that wouldn’t
disrupt the flow of ship’s business. But the blue eyes were washed
out; the blonde hair diluted and transparent so that the shade of
the carpet shone in its place.
A trembling started in Jenna’s stomach and
radiated up her chest and sternum. Swallowing felt like her throat
was made of broken glass. A retreat to her quarters to her special
chair with her special cup of tea failed to quell the anxiety
vibrating in the marrow of her bones. Unable to comprehend why she
was thinking her own thoughts and why her own image looked back from
the mirror, she tightly shut her eyes from the blinding truth of
inhabitation. Decades of books, articles and holographic sims had
prepared her for this wild possibility, but not so much that she
actually considered it probable. With her teacup still full and
steaming, she got up and stood outside the door of Rory’s office.
The sign read, "Dr. Rory Linn." Clive had purposely
omitted the word psychologist from the door as a means of
downgrading and humiliation. The two things he was most adept at.
She sat down on the hard blue couch because it was
near the window and she needed to avert her gaze from the confines
of the ship. Out the window, everything was just as it always had
been. Cold, dark, and empty but with the promise of something
greater held in its glistening arms. On Varia, she thought she had
been happy, but seeing the universe up close was where she had
always felt the most alive.
"What do you fear most, Jenna?" Rory said
in a thick, upper class English accent.
"Being alone."
"Are you alone now?"
She laughed then as she did every time the universe
presented its sense of humor through comic irony. Sure, she thought.
I’m alone in a way, except for the species trying to take over my
body and mind. "There’s no sign of Nogue. He’s
missing."
"When did you last see him?"
She shook her head and shrugged. "I don’t
know. An hour or so."
"You sound concerned. Do you believe he’s
been kidnapped? Or left the ship through the loading bay?"
"The pods have been temporarily declared
off-limits by Engineering for repairs. He didn’t go
anywhere," she enunciated, "but he’s gone just the
same." She looked up at that moment and realized several things
at once. Realized that she was talking as a result of her own
thoughts or what felt like it, and that Rory didn’t sound like
himself.
"Where’s Rory Linn?" she asked in a
pointed voice.
"Sitting right in front of you, of
course."
Once again, language Rory would never use,
especially if asked such an absurd question. Her stomach clenched at
the sight of Rory’s face folding in and out the same way Bronn’s
had in the hallway, and probably the same way her own face had upon
his entrance and exit from her body. "Stop playing games, Bronn.
You can’t just bounce from one crewmember to another looking for
whatever secret ingredient sustains you and your perverted species.
You’re endangering our well-being, not to mention the security of
this ship. What do we have that your species does not?"
"Thoughts."
"You obviously have the other cognitive
functions that depend on thoughts, so how can this be?"
"We function as a collective entity, but this
entity lacks a central consciousness. So each separate entity has to
inhabit the mind of another intellectually equal species and absorb
their thoughts and replicate them to go into the databank of our
collective self."
"Collective self? That’s ridiculous. Okay,
let’s say for instance that this were true. So what happens if you
don’t?"
"We can only survive independent of another
species for a mere hour. After that, we perish. So Rory, as you call
him, is saving my life right now."
"And I’m sure he’s grateful to provide this
public service," she snickered. "So when I saw you in the
loading bay and called security, you were in a visible form because
you weren’t inhabiting anyone else?"
"Yes."
"What do you do with the thoughts you’ve
replicated from one host when you enter the next? Do you carry over
the thoughts from one being to another?"
Rory, or Bronn, hesitated before answering. Even the
body language was different. Rory, thin, brilliantly intelligent and
usually fidgety, now sat looking down with his hands flat on his
knees. "I believe you are asking if I alter the thought
patterns and memories in a host with the knowledge I acquire from
the previous host."
The sound of the words frightened her more than the
implied possibility. She managed to nod, terrified of the answer.
"If I do, it is not my intended result and
therefore –"
"You’re lying," she said, unable to
restrain her emotions. "Where’s Nogue? Have you harmed
him?"
"I have no desire or ability to harm any being,
even those of my own species. I do not know where Lieutenant Nogal
is. Perhaps he’s sleeping."
Perhaps sleeping. This didn’t sound like Bronn. It
almost sounded like something Rory might say, finding possible
scenarios for problem solving. After all, this was Rory’s field of
expertise aside from behavioral psychology. He had been the chief
tactician on board Pangea prior to David Bennett. Sleeping. Food for
thought if nothing else.
Jenna got up from the blue couch and moved toward
the door without looking behind her.
"Are you leaving?"
"Yes. The captain has been waiting for Nogue to
deliver you, or Bronn, and now he wants me to report on their
whereabouts. I don’t know what to tell him."
Approaching the main bridge had always given her the
jitters. Only having been an officer for the past year, she had
never felt much like one and still looked at herself as an underling
of Nogue or Clive. Her hands tingled as she clenched and reclenched
her fists. Passing Deck 8 on the way to the bridge, she resisted the
urge to enter her own quarters, take all her clothes off and scan
every visible inch of her body to be sure she hadn’t been altered
physically, somehow, while possessed by the Journeyman. It was
almost too much to fathom, knowing this in her mind, feeling this
truth every time she looked at her own face in the mirror and
experienced her own independent thoughts.
She could hear the clicking of Clive’s fingers on
the keys of his panel from outside his door.
"Yes?"
She entered after exposing her palm to the wall
reader. "I need to talk to you," she said in a flat voice.
Captain Clive Winchester didn’t look up from his
work. "What is it? I have two crises I’m diffusing right
now."
"I assure you, captain, whatever they are, they
can wait."
Clive looked up. "Where’s Nogal and where’s
the prisoner you alerted us to not three days ago? Must I go out
looking for him myself?"
"You won’t find him," she said with her
eyes on the floor. "As a matter of fact, I’m sure he’s not
where I left him ten minutes ago."
"Why is that?"
"Because I spoke with him for almost an hour,
and his time is up."
Clive put down his module, pressed the ‘record’
button on Acidox’s top panel and turned to face her. "Stop
with the theatrics, Jenna. What does that mean?"
"I’m having trouble explaining it myself. The
prisoner is of the Journeyman species, and is using the members of
this crew as host bodies."
Clive stared at her, then lowered his eyes to her
neck, her chest, and then back up to her face. "You’re
certain of this?" he asked softly, the lines in his face
betraying his state of mind.
"Yes."
"For what purpose?"
"He’s feeding off our intellects and thoughts
because his species lacks a central consciousness. I was told this
through Rory Linn. That’s where the prisoner last appeared. But if
he’s finished with Linn, he has one hour to find a suitable new
host, or else he’ll expire."
"Who else is involved?"
She sighed. "Besides myself, I don’t know.
But I can say this: Rory, or who I believe was actually the prisoner
at the time, admitted that his species alters the memory and neural
patterns of their hosts by implanting information from their
previous hosts each time they go through this change. And what that
means, from a security standpoint, is that the integrity of this
crew and the entire security of Pangea is at risk while this entity
is making its rounds."
Clive had his head in his hands now, and swept his
hair back in a repeating pattern. "The entity must be
eliminated. What suggestions can you give me at this point?"
"None yet, sir. I’m on my way to engineering
now to pick their brains and I’ll have an answer for you within
the hour."
"What about Nogue? Has he been, how shall I
say, compromised by this entity?"
"I think so, yes."
There was no answer to the sound of the buzzer at
the office door of Rory Linn. She entered anyway, but he was gone
and his module was turned off. So that’s two now, she thought,
referring to the fact that both Rory and Nogue had been inhabited by
the entity and now both were missing.
"Acidox?" she spoke toward the ceiling.
"Acidox-is-currently-online, Lieutenant-Luther.
What-information-do-you-require?"
"Where’s Bennett?" she asked, not
wanting panic to sound in her voice. She was in no mood for
computer-psychoanalysis.
"Second-Officer-David-Bennett-is-on-Deck-Four-Officer’s-Lounge."
On the way there, she regarded every crewmember she
passed as a possible Journeyman disguised as a human. Unsure why,
she felt certain now that Bronn was only one of several intruders on
board the Pangea. But the one signature she’d seen in Rory that
she also saw in Bronn while he was walking in his own skin was his
face. Not a normal face, surely not a human face and not even a
recognizable one as its color, texture and most basic structure
faded in and out. Deck Four’s Officers Quarters were always
inhabited by the same crowd. David Bennett, Rory Linn, Nogue, and
Dr. Margy Wheelock. Sometimes even Clive, in his stiff unyielding
manner, could be seen with a drink in his hand from time to time.
Today, day two of the Moll cycle, David Bennett sat at a table in
the far corner with his head resting on his hands.
"David?"
He looked up, but said nothing.
"Are you ill?" Jenna asked.
"I’ve been looking for you."
"Well I’ve been busy," she said and
almost laughed, but caught herself in time to restore her
professional demeanor when the ceiling monitor beeped. Clive’s
enlarged face appeared on the screen in usual form. Stern,
disconcerted.
"Lieutenant Luther, I need you to return to the
Main Bridge."
They looked at his face, Jenna and David, and looked
at each other as they watched its structure begin to gently implode
on itself, and its very form collapse into the nothing-void of air,
space, and time surrounding it. And as gently as it had folded away
it fed into itself again. Now the ghastly visage of Clive
Winchester, Captain of Pangea, Officer in the Alliance of Planets,
stared back at them impatient for the answer that had not yet come.
"Yes, sir. I’m en route."
David Bennett walked beside her, huddled into the
crook of her shoulder, whispering while trying to comprehend the
image forever stamped in his memory.
"Did you see that?"
"I saw."
"Is that what you saw happen to the
others?"
She considered this question.
"Jenna?" David’s voice was frantic now,
and she could understand this emotion since it’s what she’d felt
constantly for the past twenty-four hours. "In lesser degrees,
yes. I saw the intruder’s face move in that same pattern, as well
as Rory’s when he was inhabited. And –"
"And what?" David Bennett said without any
regard to what was beginning to take form in his own face, his own
head and cranial structure.
Jenna felt the strangling feeling return to her
intestines as she calmly watched her biggest fear unfold before her
eyes. She turned around and ran down the hallway toward Deck Nine.
There was only one hope of finding sanity in this place, and Margy
Wheelock was the only one who could help.
"Where are you going?" David yelled in a
horrified voice.
"There’s something I need to take care
of."
In the hallway, she passed two sets of crewmembers,
two of them officers, two of them maintenance technicians she
recognized from the medical wing. Trying desperately to keep her
gaze locked onto the drab carpet in front of her, she allowed her
eyes to meet the gaze of one crewmember as they passed each other,
and… could it be possible? Was it happening again? But how could
Bronn move so quickly from one host to another? And why would he?
She had been directly informed that a Journeyman feeds off of the
intellect of one host for several hours, sometimes a day before
having to change locations to find a new host. So if David… if
Clive … if the technician she just passed…
Oh God, she thought. Unless there truly were more
than one.
It was the only logical explanation. "No!"
she yelled, running down the hallway now uncaring of who saw her and
what they thought and how she was representing officers onboard the
Pangea. She turned abruptly and fell down against the wall leading
to one of the empty storerooms and allowed herself the luxury of
crying. While tears fell from her swollen eye sockets, her jaw
remained tightly anchored in anger and betrayal, still unable to
comprehend the likelihood of this probability. "I have to
think," she said aloud into the tiny alcove. It felt good being
there surrounded by walls in a tight space. There was no way they
could get to her now, unless of course they could survive within the
walls. Okay, think, she said to herself. When did this first happen?
While we were still near Varia. And Megtalion, the planet they’d
been docked at for the past two years, was in the same galaxy as
Varia. But other than that, Megtalion had no similarities to Varia,
either in atmosphere, structural composition or inhabitants. Then it
dawned on her. If Pangea was docked at Megtalion, a planet inhabited
by over a million beings, perhaps the Journeymen were on there way
to the surface to perpetuate their study of consciousness there, to
ruin people’s minds and alter their thoughts, memories, destroying
what it took lifetimes to collect and assimilate, all for the
purpose of education and exploration?
Were they so different from her, though? From
humans? The Pangea was an explorative aircraft assigned to do tests,
collect data, and make observations on the inhabitability of
Megtalion over a prolonged period of time, in other words to
determine if it was likely to be still inhabitable in one hundred
years based on the planet’s current available resources and
potential future resources. The only difference was that their
exploration wasn’t harming any other beings and had no dark
implications for the future. Only one possibility remained. She had
to assume, from what she’d seen in the past twenty minutes, that
at least half the crew were inhabited by Journeymen right now, and
she had to stop them. Standing in front of Dr. Margy Wheelock’s
office door, her eyes bleary from fear and panic, she braced herself
for the gravest of possibilities.
The door opened by itself.
Margy Wheelock started to exit and walked straight
into her. "Oh, Jenna. I’m so-rry! What are you doing
here?" Margy bent down to look at Jenna’s face. "Are you
alright? It doesn’t look like it. Come in."
Jenna followed her to a sitting area in her office.
"You look awful."
"I don’t know how to explain it to you in a
way that won’t convince you that I’m insane." She tried to
explain it. Started out with something Nogue said to her yesterday
and continued with her own experience of inhabitation, then with
Rory Linn, Clive, and now Bennett. Margy just nodded back at her in
a calmer state than she would have thought possible under the
circumstances.
"You’re not surprised?"
"I’ve known about their species for some
time, even known that they were, at times, among us. But now, we’ve
become more than just curiosity to them."
"Are they trying to get to the surface of
Megtalion?"
"That would be my guess. It’s likely one of
them boarded Pangea from Varia, and they can carry other dormant
beings of their own species with them. So in an open, trusting
environment where communication is not only expected but accepted,
we have allowed them to flourish." Margy looked deeply at Jenna.
"So this is our fault, then?"
"In a way."
Jenna’s hands sweat violently, terrified of what
would come next, of how Margy was about to change and alter her
appearance.
But she didn’t.
"What can I do?" Margy asked.
Jenna drew in a breath and exhaled slowly.
"They can’t survive for more than an hour on their own. They
inhabit us to collect information about our neural patterns and
memory capacity, concentrating on the hypothalamus part of the
brain, and essentially drain it of its life energy, and then take
what they’ve collected and root it in the brain of their next
victim."
"So once you’ve been ‘processed’ by them,
you’re clearly not the same person you were before."
"Correct."
"What do you suggest?"
"Putting the crew to sleep for twelve hours, to
be safe. If we regain consciousness and realize that they are still
alive and with us, no harm was caused in the trying, and we’ll try
again, next time for twenty-four hours. Do you have a way of doing
this?"
Margy paced on the carpet for several moments.
"Through the ventilation system, I suppose. I can exude an
anesthetizing gas that will put everyone to sleep, including us. But
how do we arrange this with engineering?"
"I’ll take care of that. You work on the gas
and signal my module when you’re ready. I’ll be in
engineering."
"You’re just gonna to walk through the doors
and explain it to them?"
"Don’t worry about me. You just do what you
can and signal me once you’re about to release the gas."
The respirator mask was still where she had seen it
last in the storage room off the second engineering wing. Bennett
and Raskin would be there, along with some of the half-time
technical interns they always had on hand. So she sat behind the
door in the storage room on top of a rectangular steel container –
and waited. In the nearly pitch darkness, under the clanky hum of
the ship’s engine and a mélange of synthetic smells, Jenna Luther
had time to consider her own thoughts. Had she been altered in some
way since being inhabited and then released by the Journeyman Bronn?
For that matter, how many other Bronns had violated her, slipped
into her consciousness and stolen precious memories, worries, joys
and pain? Was she the same Jenna that woke up twenty-four hours ago,
the same woman who put on makeup, showered, and then crept back into
Nogue’s bed to press her warm body against his? With an
indiscernible belief that he was still alive, where had he been
hiding all day and night? Or, as the more frightening of
possibilities emerged, where had he been hidden?
She felt a sensation on her hip where her module was
vibrating. It was just like Dr. Wheelock to signal her without
announcing herself and compromising her position. And since the
doctor hadn’t specified exactly how long it would take for the gas
to take effect, she had to assume that it would be almost
instantaneous. She looked at her watch and waited a few minutes
more. When the sounds of activity and conversation ceased in the
main hull of the engineering deck, she slipped her head into the
respirator mask and then out of the small room to made her way to
the controls. According to her brief cross-training course in
engineering two years ago, setting the engine on the Automatic
reader should involve three steps.
"Acidox?" she said, her voice muffled by
the apparatus. Please don’t give me any song and dance, she
thought to herself feeling frustration tingle in her fingertips.
"Voice-recognition-not-approved.
Please-identify."
Damn it, she hissed. Drawing in a long breath, she
peeled off the mask just high enough to expose her mouth to the
atmosphere, and repeated her command. "Acidox? It’s Jenna
Luther. I want all ship’s engines put on Automatic setting for the
next twelve hours."
"Automatic-setting-has-already-been-enabled,
Lieutenant."
Already enabled? By whom? Jenna clamped the
apparatus back on her face and quickly scanned the room. It was hard
to see anything over the hard fiberglass hood, but no one else was
visible ahead of her or from her peripheral –
"Hi," Nogue said from behind her.
She gasped and slapped her hand to her chest.
"Are you trying to kill me? Are you?"
"No. I’m trying to help you. I’m trying to
help all of us."
"You already did if we’re on Auto."
"Don’t take your mask off just yet. We’ll
go to my quarters first, and get settled there."
Jenna grabbed Nogue’s hand and pulled him toward
her. "Where have you been? Do you know what’s going on
here?"
He nodded.
"Were you … altered? Was I?"
"There’s no way to be sure outside of a full
psychological analysis whether either of us were. The fact that we’re
talking independently points to a negative conclusion, but we’ll
have to wait and see."
Jenna Luther woke up next to Gary Nogal twelve hours
later the same way she had woken the day before and every day before
that. But the contents of Nogue’s quarters were different somehow.
Maybe dimmer in color, and the smells and sounds that she’d grown
accustomed to were distant now and almost indistinguishable. Just
before removing her mask, her eyes locked onto the bouquet of gold
and silver sculpted flowers sitting on the dresser. They were as
shiny as she remembered.